2 Months

Already! Yes, I'm going to be saying that a lot. It just doesn't seem like two months have passed since she was placed in our arms!! We are so so thankful to have our sweet girl with us and thank God every day for this opportunity and blessing of being her parents! One year ago this Thursday I had an appointment with my Dr, which was one of many appointments last fall, but at that particular appt I left with a paper in my hand with several referral options for a Reproductive Endocrinologist. Thankfully it was only another 3 months before I was back in Dr. A's office 10 weeks pregnant. But we didn't know that was going to happen, and I remember leaving that day feeling so down and depressed because the prior three months of Clomid therapy had failed, and the paper in my hand was just one more reminder that my body was broken. One thing I often do when I feel that way is tell myself to imagine that day one year in the future. So I did. I had no idea if we'd be holding a sweet baby in our arms or not, but I made myself believe we'd be at least one step closer.

And look where we are. :-)

11/15/10

This was yesterday...trying out the Bumbo seat! Haha, that expression is too funny..."Um, Mom? What the heck is this thing? Do I like it??"

Love her!!! I wish you could hear the sound effects... "Did that sound come out of ME?" 11/16/10
Happy 2 months sweet girl!! (Same outfit as her 1 month photo...except this time with babylegs leg warmers...it was kinda chilly in the house this morning!)

Love love love this chubby little face!!!

Miss Aveline is 2 months old today, and starting to show off her bubbly little personality! She babbles and coos almost non-stop when she's awake and happy. This past week she has started to chew on her hands...mostly just trying to shove her whole fist in her mouth all at once, lol. She hasn't found her thumb yet, and I don't know that she will. She isn't a pacifier baby...we've tried a few different kinds and it stays in her mouth for less time than it takes to get her to take it in the first place! She's also started smiling a LOT more...and I've even gotten a few little giggles out of her! The best thing in the whole world is when she hasn't seen me for a little while and then all of a sudden realizes I'm there and gives me the biggest grin ever. ::::heart melting!:::: She's done that a few times in the morning when I go to pick her up out of the swing (still sleeping in the swing due to reflux...although we don't have it swinging anymore, it's just so she can sleep inclined). That's the best way to start the day! :-)

Oh yes, and I did see Dr. A again today to follow up on my blood pressure. I've been taking it at home twice a day these past two weeks, and while it is still borderline, I don't need to be on medication. YAY! I forgot to ask about whether she thought my pre-hypertensive pressures are PCOS related or not, but I'm going to assume they are seems how it is part of the syndrome. By the way, a pretty "normal" pressure for me is 120's and 130's over 70's and 80's. Sometimes they'll be in the one-teens over sixties, but not often. They used to consider 120/80 to be the "textbook" blood pressure, but now it is considered pre-hypertensive. At least that's what we were told in nursing school...

I have to go back to work in just 27 days. :-( :-( :-( I am actually looking forward to working again in the sense that I miss my co-workers...they are a huge part of my social life and I love them all!!...and I do love my job. Oh, and there's the money part...getting paid 2/3 my normal pay isn't much fun. I also feel like I can be so much more helpful to the new mommies I will take care of now that I've actually experienced first hand what they are and will be experiencing! But I'm dreading the schedule change back to night shifts again, and of course I'm dreading leaving my little Avi girl at home! I know she'll be with Daddy or one of her grandmas whenever I'm gone, but it's still hard knowing I won't be there when I have been there for her 24/7 for the past YEAR! (Minus a few hours for the couple times Scott and I went out without her and the times I've gone to the store while Daddy watched her...) I won't be there to nurse her to sleep at night, or to do her 4am feeding (or any other time she wakes up in the middle of the night...usually it's once but sometimes it's two or three times!). And then if I have to go back to work the next night I will be coming home and sleeping so I won't be there during the day either! UGH!! At least that will only be about 1 day a week. If I'm NOT going back to work the next night I plan to just come home and try to take a nap with her in the morning. But man, I'm totally dreading this schedule...will I ever sleep again?? And is she going to scream all night if she has to take a bottle at bedtime and 4am instead of Mommy?? Trust me, we're practicing now, but it's not going so well yet. We've crashed and burned the two or three times we've tried giving her a bottle at bedtime instead. :-( :-(

I guess there is a reason you don't remember anything before about 3 years of age. If she screams all night until she figures out that the bottle is the only way she's going to get food that night, it won't kill her. I'm not sure about Daddy though...I feel bad for him! Hopefully she gets the hang of this bottle thing sooner rather than later...

:::sigh:::

Man, I wanted to end on a happy note!

Oh yeah...MY BABY GIRL IS TWO MONTHS OLD!!! I love her. SO so much.

And I like this song...