Another "Anniversary"

Today marks another anniversary...two actually. June 24th, 2009 is the day I took the NCLEX test and became an official RN. It really doesn't seem like it's been a whole year!! I posted this on Facebook and someone said "Happy Nurseaversary!" Hahaha, I love it! :-D

The other "anniversary" is finding out we were pregnant with our little March baby. That was also on June 24th, 2009. That day I had no idea I would start bleeding exactly 4 weeks later. Instead, I was extremely excited and optimistic that "this time it will work!"...even though I was also very scared and nervous at the same time.

I really haven't been sure how to feel about today...and I know next month's "anniversary" of when we had to say goodbye will be worse...but for some reason I'm sad today too. I miss our little peanut, and I can't help but thinking I would be holding our 3 month old right now. I say "would" and not "should" because I know it wasn't meant to be...I just wish I knew why. I hope and pray the reason is the little princess squirming around inside me right now...

Speaking of squirming, thankfully Monkey has been super active the past 2 days. I got put on-call at work on Tuesday night so I stayed up late watching TV (I had slept all day after working the previous night) and at about 1am she started wiggling around a ton and kicking me HARD...but not hard enough to be uncomfortable...I yanked up my shirt and watched the show! It really was awesome!!! And she kept it up for a good hour or more! Seriously, there's nothing better than that feeling. And though she hasn't been consistantly THAT wild since, I have felt her moving around a few times every hour, which is more than I have up to this point. I am glad, Mommy needed/needs the reassurance. :::lovingly rubs belly:::

SO to make myself feel better today I bought this from BRU, using one of my 20% off coupons. It was on my registry. I know, I know...I shouldn't be buying stuff off my registry until after my showers...but it was therapeutic! So there!! And I now have it playing pressed right up against my belly, and she's kickin' away. I have no idea if it's because of the music or if she's just continuing her normal activity, but I like to think she's enjoying it. :-D And I promise not to buy anything else off my registry...this was the one and only thing.

Oh, I also ordered our bedding set today...but that wasn't related to the specific day at all. I changed the set again. :::ducks so as not to get hit with flying objects::: It's from JCPenney and has been "unavailable" since the day I decided to order it...I tried to order it and it wouldn't let me. The nice lady on the phone said it was probably just out of stock because she didn't see anything that said it was discontinued. Luckily, today it became available again...although on backorder until 7/08. I can deal with backorder, I just wanted to get something ORDERED!!! We went with just a plain pink bedding set...but it's super cute with "minky dots" and thick crib ties. Here's a link to the actual crib we'll be getting with the bedding set...but we ordered the pink bedding (diaper stacker not included, and window valance purchased separately). I changed my mind AGAIN because I was worried about clashing patterns. With the solid bedding, we can decorate the rest of the room however we want to!! Which of course will be monkeys. :-) These decals, along with blankets and stuffed animals (of which her collection has already started) will add more color and cuteness to the room without overdoing it with too many patterns. Please PLEASE let this set actually come so I don't have to start from scratch again!!

I think that's it. Now it's off to bed...well, off to the bedroom to watch Frasier and put clean clothes away. Ugh. I hate putting clothes away...unless they're baby clothes...now THAT might actually be fun!! I can't wait...

~Abigail~