Can't Concentrate...

So this has been a difficult week. Parts of it I don't want to talk about, so don't ask. Other parts are just due to the endless stress of school--assignments, tests, SO much swirling through my head--Block 4 is HARD. I got an 86% on my first test on Feb 1st, it was all Maternity so I was hoping to do better, but oh well. I did my best. We had a TON of home work due during those first few weeks, so that is why I wasn't able to study as much as I had hoped. And I never thought that working only 20 hours per week would be too much. But it is, and it's hard! Only 3 more months and I will be graduating...I hope. This week we have another test (on the 15th) and it's part maternity, part pediatrics and a BIG part cardiac. YIKES!!! Our peds instructor is terrible so we have to read every single thing in the book. One student who is repeating this semester and had her last semester described her test questions like this: "Johnny has a temp of 102.6, crackles bilaterally with a non-productive cough. What color are his eyes?" ?!?!?!?!? Of course the other student was being really sarcastic, but if her questions are vague and rediculous I'm going to scream. I hate teachers who first of all DON'T TEACH and second, ask confusing test questions on purpose. Our cardiac instructor on the other hand is really good. She's going to give us a study guide and she explains things really really well. I'm still confused because, well, cardiac stuff confuses me (lol), but she's a great teacher!! So this test on Sunday is pretty much going to be BAD.

And today I am sick. Don't know why, but I woke up all achey and then proceeded to get the chills and upset stomach not long afterwards. My temp was only 99.3 at about 10am, but climbed to 100.0 before I decided to take some Ibuprofen so I wouldn't feel icky all day. That was two hours ago, and I feel much better now. Stupid fever. Why did you have to come and ruin my day?? Don't you know I have to STUDY!?!? Geez.

I'm just in a bad mood. Can you tell? Lol. Bad week, bad mood...I'm glad I was able to go to church yesterday though. That was nice. Didn't catch much from the sermon because my mind kept wandering but it was still nice to be there. I hate SO much that I can't go every week. Stupid school...and work. I can't wait until May. I will get my life back. I am so over nursing school. Seriously, I SHOULD be totally motivated to finish strong and get done...nope, no motivation whatsoever. Nada. I'm having to FORCE myself to study this semester...I just don't care! Grrr. I wish there was a vitamin I could take for that: "Take THIS to improve study habits!", or even better: "Take THIS to retain everything you hear or read!" That would be awesome. Or how about using my textbook as a pillow...couldn't I just absorb it all by osmosis or something?? *Sigh*

Haven't heard on the house we're waiting for yet...still waiting for the bank to review our offer and either accept/reject/or counter us. I hope they either accept or counter (obviously). It really is the perfect little house for us. But I'm not telling you about it right now. In the past as soon as I've told all of Blogger about a house we lose it the next day. So my lips are sealed. I'm not superstitious at all (really I'm not, I'm just being a brat).

Hopefully none of my negativity has rubbed off on any of you...I just needed to rant and rave and now I feel better. Plus it's my blog, so I can rant and rave if I want! :-D

Done being a brat (for now),
~Abigail~