I See a Monkey!!

Hi Monkey, this is your mother. Well, we got to see you today...you're 8.5mm long today, the perfect size according to my calculations, right down to the day. But your heartbeat is low. Did it just start beating? Because if it did, then a low heartbeat is very normal. But since we don't know, your mommy is worried! Your brother or sister had a heartrate of 125 when he/she was 6w2d. You are 6w6d today and your heartrate is only 73. Daddy and the ultrasound nurse say you're fine and I shouldn't worry, but I can't help it. We love you so much!! Please stay strong and grow and keep that little heartbeat going! We get to see you again in one week, and I can't wait! This is going to be a long week. Tomorrow is one year exactly since we lost your first sibling. Next week is the same time I started bleeding with my last pregnancy, and we lost your second sibling at 8wks exactly...which would be 8 days from now. Please baby Monkey, make Mommy and Daddy happy next week? Don't leave us, okay?

Please God, don't let this happen to us again? Please keep our little one strong, let him/her grow strong and healthy! I pray that this little heartbeat just started within the past couple days, that the heartrate of 73 is normal and perfectly fine, and that next week we'll see a nice strong number of 125 or more. You promised in John 14:13 that you would do whatever we ask in Your name, and Father we're asking that you protect our little Monkey. You created him/her, you started this life, please continue to breathe life into this baby. Please keep me calm, please give me your peace as in Philippians 4:6-7. I may cry this week, I may have doubts...please keep my heart strong and my mind clear as much as possible...this is so hard. We want everything to be okay so badly. Please help us to trust You.

~Abigail~